Panties in a Bunch

Sunday funday?

2011-06-19T15:51:00.000-07:00

I am feeling pretty low today. I don't know why, I just feel really empty. A lot happened this weekend, but not anything so meaningful to where it stuck, at least in a good way. I went to palm springs for a co-worker's birthday, it was fun to play with her daughter, she's 1.5 years old and very very cute.

Outside of that though, I had trouble connecting with most the people there and in some ways, hoped to make new friends, but just didn't see the point or opportunity. I also realized I have a lot of trouble getting lost in the moment. I almost can't do it. It really sucks, but the whole time I am hanging out, I could spend every other second wondering where I should be, or what I should do...I think that's why I love babies so much, I can't help but get lost in the moment, my whole purpose and goal is to make that kid smile or laugh. Gail and Samira were fun, but I still had some issues feeling just completely happy. I don't know what's missing, but something definitely is.

I left the birthday festivities early to make it home to my dad's for Father's Day. It was special because my brother is on R&R for 2 weeks and was staying at my dad's for the weekend with Geneys and Curtis. I got there around midnight and it was really cute cause they were all awake waiting for me.

Sometimes my family feels like floating familiar friendly bodies, but not as alive and reliant on each other as I would like it to be...or maybe it's just the connection to me. I don't know. I am just feeling very lonely, lost, and just low.

Talking to Harry today really helped. I know I have to come more and more away from that, but he makes me feel better. Like almost always, 9/10 times. And I can describe to him exactly how I feel, he's not formulating solutions or advice yet, he's just listening and trying to hear me out. I guess I've never really found a replacement for this part in Harry...in a friend or boyfriend.

More and more I am beginning to feel like Matt is not my story. Sometimes I feel hopeful, but you know, I made a list of things for him to do soon...and I realized this wasn't supposed to be my life or how it's supposed to be...lists like, get a new id, fix your broken car windows, sell your bed, move your stuff into your car and home...

I don't have the balls to do it, but I think I know what I'm looking for and I'm just not seeing it at all.

Not quite the weekend but...

2011-06-09T10:38:00.000-07:00

Longview for the 4th?

2011-06-09T10:27:00.001-07:00

Population 35,000...this is a pic of a post card created for Longview. Loading lumber at the water front!

So crazy...

‎"A spirit in my feet said go, and I went."

2011-06-01T21:51:00.000-07:00

Good run tonight from my home to Veteran and Sunset to Sunset and Hilgard and then back. UCLA is beautiful and so is the city at night.

Lots of thoughts in my head about the big and small...the run helped a lot a lot. :)

Santa Barbara

2011-05-17T12:04:00.000-07:00

Thanks to TravelZoo and the help of Yoana, Matt took me to Santa Barbara for a short but really fun getaway.

We stayed at the Canary hotel...probably the only 5 star hotel I've ever been to and enjoyed a day on State Street and the beach. We spent a lot of time in our room, I mean that's what you pay for mostly right? and that was fun too :P

Our deal included a 3 course dinner at their restaurant and that was really really good. We had a tomato salad, ribeye steak and prawns, and ice cream with fresh berries. Mmmm. Here are some pictures from the trip.

Classic Car show on State Street, we lucked out, Matt loves these things...

He wanted more pictures of him in glasses so here ya go...

Me at dinner...tequila and steak on the way!

Overall, a really good trip. We had a lot of fun and I'll remember this one for a long while. I guess it is sort of close to our 1.5 year mark as a couple. I got a necklace from this really cute store called Plum Goods and I got him a new wallet and whiskey stones. :)

Boos and money, honey...

So Friggin Cute

2011-05-04T10:59:00.000-07:00

http://www.buzzfeed.com/mikehayes/the-oldest-couple-ever-to-get-married

UCLA finds Bin Laden?

2011-05-03T16:18:00.000-07:00

Extra! Extra! Read all about it!

Thanks Adam :)

Video of the Day!

2011-04-29T10:29:00.001-07:00

Tuesday Highlights

2011-04-26T10:22:00.000-07:00

Quick list of things that made me happy today (so far)...

1. The Blip.fm station between Adam and I. I'm enjoying this shared playlist. His songs don't have vowels in the names (Hyph Mngo) type of thing but I like...a lot!

2. Starting the day off healthy ... an apple, greek yogurt, and green tea.

3. My dad facebook friending me

4. Discovering a bright packet of spiral notebooks just for me on my desk!

5. This Video (http://www.buzzfeed.com/ashleybaccam/fish-is-really-hard-to-say)

Could-have-been-love story

2011-04-22T15:10:00.001-07:00

Video Of the Day .... cute barf barf barf.

Happy 21st Hubble...Thank you for this pic

2011-04-22T09:54:00.000-07:00

NASA's Hubble space telescope celebrates its 21st birthday with the release of the stunning image of two galaxies linked by a bridge of stars, creating a "rose" of galaxies.

This made me laugh today

2011-04-21T10:53:00.001-07:00

Meh

2011-04-21T10:32:00.001-07:00

“There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.”

— Friedrich Nietzsche

Rhymes

2011-04-20T15:57:00.001-07:00

Sara: i have a bad attitude

Sara: it's less stressful

Sara: but also not as happy

Gail - Edit: wow

Gail - Edit: ow

Sara: isnt that sad

Gail - Edit: thats real sad

Gail - Edit: real bad

Gail - Edit: it makes me mad

Gail - Edit: im gonna call ur dad

Gail - Edit: i hope its just a fad

Gail - Edit: u should wear a pad

Gail - Edit: you should cheer up just a tad

Gail - Edit: that'd be rad

Gail - Edit: dont be sad

Sara: wow

Sara: im real mad

Sara: is that bad

Video of the Day

2011-04-18T23:47:00.001-07:00

Since I work for an online video guide, I feel like it'd be fun to post a video as often as I blog. Today's video is perhaps one of the greatest karaoke songs of all time (with a twist), enjoy!

Video of the Day!

Other than this video idea and a renewed interest in my abandoned blog, I also wanted to write a little about my new friend Martin. I have enjoyed his company and appreciated the similarities in our personalities and interests this first week together, but today I felt really close to him. We were talking about relationships and our pasts...we also talked about our current boyfriends and a little about what I was going through in my relationship with Matt. After describing some of my complaints and concerns, Martin gave me some really great advice. He's proposed a few things and to start, there are 2 goals I hope to practice not only in my relationship, but with all things in my life:

1) Don't try - If you remove the word 'try' from everything you want to do, it not only changes the sound of the sentence, but also strengthens the intent of what you're saying. You end up making a promise aloud to yourself and to your audience. It is very exciting and energizing to say "I am going to Australia this year" vs. "I'm going to try to travel more this year." I love it and can apply it to many things like "I am going to relax" vs. "I am going to try to be more relaxed about things." :)

2) Give up on expectations - Living in a "I will be happy when...I am married, I have kids, I have a house, I save up $$$ dollars" world is always going to be depressing. You will always be reaching for that next carrot dangling ahead of you instead of being here and NOW. Idealized happiness and unrealistic expectations turn into the worst kinds of feelings...disappointment and failure. If you expect him to bring you flowers because it's Valentine's Day and you sit and hope and wish and imagine that the whole day and he walks into the house empty handed, all you want to say is 'F OFF.' On the other hand, if you didn't expect anything, and you discover a post-it on your door with a sweet message, it carries you all day.

So yes, for one whole day, I'm going to SUCCEED not TRY and let go of expectations...I think this will be a recipe for success in my work life, personal life, and can be a long term solution to getting what I want and realizing I need to take realistic baby steps in getting there! :)

Wanna laugh on a Monday?

2011-04-18T10:41:00.000-07:00

This guy makes me wanna dance and laugh and rollerblade all at once.

Video

Sunday Mornings

2011-04-17T14:12:00.000-07:00

Growing up in a pastor's home, Sunday mornings were like school days except you got to sleep in maybe an extra hour. We had the same obstacle course, the same hurdles...getting up, showered, dressed, fed, and hurled into the car at lightening speed to make it before the bell rang.

I couldn't really imagine anything other than that routine for a Sunday morning. People missing for vacations, Superbowl weekends, and because they were ill were just about the only reasons I ever heard and even then, I thought that was weird, especially the football game reason.

Now that I am older though, and on my own, I have come to appreciate the calm and simplicity you can only find on a Sunday morning. I don't want to discount Saturday mornings, Saturday mornings have always been the star, you can count on her to be there but perhaps in the same way you might count on the girl you KNOW will go home with you at the end of the night. Sunday mornings are a different beast, they are that soft-spoken, pleasant and gentle surprise. Just when you're about to freak out, half awake and panicked at the thought of being late for work, the stillness of a Sunday morning reminds you that the weekday morning filled with screeching cars and blaring horns are yet a day away. Sunday morning invites you back to bed, forgives you for a wild Saturday night or sometimes just gives you that long warm hug you never knew you wanted.

I still sheepishly show up at my dad's church about once a month, and very late. I loved that part of my life but can now understand whole-heartedly the simple goodness of being bad and staying home from church. The rest of the day unfolds with weekend chores, but there are very few things I love more in my grown up life than a slow Sunday morning.

Merry Christmas

2009-12-25T02:03:00.001-08:00

Also major highlight...got a new laptop today for my new work & life (see beeeelow) and also....basically leaving for Seattle with my wife today! :D

Spur of the Moment

2009-12-20T02:08:00.000-08:00

Deciding to go out tonight was the best of the day. We had so much fun, even if it took an hour to get there. The house was insane....INSANE....and we had so much fun playing a great round of sherades and some random Christmas song game. Anyway, a great night and a few pictures that make me laugh. Very excited about hanging out with some of the new people from tonight. :)

p.s. I heart Andrea!!!

Skinny Girl Pose...lol. Helena is a rebel.

Sexy (Horrific) Pose. Haha.

White Elephant & Potluck at Work

2009-12-17T15:06:00.000-08:00

We got the Patron! :D

Mariam upgrades from SPAM to Coconut Rum!

Who will I marry? Apparently someone named IAN (Jacobson?)

TimO's Stuffffff

2009-12-16T13:58:00.000-08:00

2009-12-15T11:24:00.001-08:00

Insomniac

by Galway Kinnell

I open my eyes to see how the night
is progressing. The clock glows green,
the light of the last-quarter moon
shines up off the snow into our bedroom.
Her portion of our oceanic duvet
lies completely flat. The words
of the shepherd in Tristan, "Waste
and empty, the sea," come back to me.
Where can she be? Then in the furrow
where the duvet overlaps her pillow,
a small hank of brown hair
shows itself, her marker that she's here,
asleep, somewhere down in the dark
underneath. Now she rotates
herself a quarter turn, from strewn
all unfolded on her back to bunched
in a Z on her side, with her back to me.
I squirm nearer, careful not to break
into the immensity of her sleep,
and lie there absorbing the astounding
quantity of heat a slender body
ovens up around itself.
Her slow, purring, sometimes snorish,
perfectly intelligible sleeping sounds
abruptly stop. A leg darts back
and hooks my ankle with its foot
and draws me closer. Immediately
her sleeping sounds resume, telling me:
"Come, press against me, yes, like that,
put your right elbow on my hipbone, perfect,
and your right hand at my breasts, yes, that's it,
now your left arm, which has become extra,
stow it somewhere out of the way, good.
Entangled with each other so, unsleeping one,
together we will outsleep the night."

Happy Endings

2009-12-15T09:35:00.000-08:00

I am going to become an unreasonably enthusiastic Ravens fan...actually, a fan of whatever team Michael Oher plays for. Just saw The Blindside, a true story about a southern family who falls in love with the sweetest kid in town. The family (Tuohy) ends up adopting him because he is just so awesome. I loved the movie and now I will love Michael Oher, the Tuohys, and the Ravens! :D

Real Life Tuohys + Michael (minus their 2 other kids)

And so it is...

2009-12-14T12:16:00.000-08:00

4 Days left at work.

Eleven days too many til Seattle/Portland.

Want more time on the Online?

2009-12-11T15:44:00.000-08:00

Treasures I found while prospecting today:

http://ugliesttattoos.com/
http://1000awesomethings.com/
http://www.textsfromlastnight.com/
http://itemnotasdescribed.com/
http://awkwardfamilyphotos.com/
http://www.instructables.com/

Currently my favorite sites:

http://poetrycritical.net
http://writersalmanac.publicradio.org

Deserves a second nod:

http://lamebook.com

Count Me Down

2009-12-09T13:32:00.000-08:00

): Seven days left with work...

(: Sixteen days til Seattle...

2009-12-06T15:48:00.001-08:00

Quarantine

by Eavan Boland

In the worst hour of the worst season
of the worst year of a whole people
a man set out from the workhouse with his wife.
He was walking-they were both walking-north.

She was sick with famine fever and could not keep up.
He lifted her and put her on his back.
He walked like that west and north.
Until at nightfall under freezing stars they arrived.

In the morning they were both found dead.
Of cold. Of hunger. Of the toxins of a whole history.
But her feet were held against his breastbone.
The last heat of his flesh was his last gift to her.

Let no love poem ever come to this threshold.
There is no place here for the inexact
praise of the easy graces and sensuality of the body.
There is only time for this merciless inventory:

Their death together in the winter of 1847.
Also what they suffered. How they lived.
And what there is between a man and a woman.
And in which darkness it can best be proved.

Find out What you Love

2009-11-24T10:05:00.000-08:00

One of those speeches you can't really shake off.

http://news-service.stanford.edu/news/2005/june15/jobs-061505

Vegas : Family & Grenades!

2009-11-23T10:41:00.000-08:00

Here are a few of my favorite things from this weekend:

The "other" side of the dam.

Bridge connecting AZ and NV in construction.

I love ducks and I've seen them everywhere! CA, CO, and NV. Hope WA has some waiting for me too.

Favorite People:

They are so cute!

Us! Seeeee isn't it worth hustling people to take a photo of us ALL?!

Favorite Vegas Club Pics:

Us!
Four cranberry vodkas later...Weeee!

Favorite Grenade - BOATS N HOS!:

Aw, feel bad about this one. :P

Favorite Group - Vancouver, CA! :

They were a lot of fun.

Favorite 'STUD' that stole my Wife's heart:

Not sure it was worth the grenading, but she had fun. :D

Road Trip!

2009-11-20T10:48:00.000-08:00

The last time I went to vegas, I drove alone and in the dark of the night. It was a good experience and I'm glad I got my first solo mini trip out of the way but....this time I am taking Yoana and it's a whole different kind of excitement. When we arrive there will be an awesome home cooked meal and a night of giggles, forensic files, cock blocking curtis, and games..haha...

Maybe we'll go out tonight and Saturday night, still left to be decided. But anyway, Yaaaaaaaaaay! ITookAGrenade.com will get some new posts after this weekend too. ;)

Vegas Here We Come

2009-11-18T10:35:00.000-08:00

Today I woke up and got to the gym and feel pretty awesome. I have some after work plans that make my normal daily show/colbert report routine impossible.

Anyway, I also felt super excited about my upcoming vegas trip with Yoana. I will get to introduce her to the family, make us all legit and official LOL and also get a night at Tao. It will be my mission to play wingwoman and also hook us up with free stuffffff.

So yeah...here are some pictures from our last triiiiiip. It was so awesome, can't wait.

Hope to get the same table situation so we can dance awaay from the massses.

I will be leaving the SPANX behind and Yoana will pose with her legs closed. How. About. That?

This here will be ME. Yep, I'm gonna play Winggggwomaaaaaan. Lol. Oh Yoana and her grenade skills. So much to learn.

CAN'T WAIIIIIIIIIIT! BASICALLY 1.5 MORE DAYS!

White White Snow in White White Colorado

2009-11-16T13:20:00.000-08:00

This past weekend my good friend from high school and I explored Colorado. I'm pretty happy about the trip overall. We covered Boulder, Rocky Mountains, Estes Park, Colorado Springs, and Downtown Denver. We ate like gods and our rent a car wasn't too shabby either. Lol.

Here are some pictures. Next to come???? Vegaaaaaaaaaaaaaas. 4 more days. :P

View of Downtown Denver from our awesome room.

Morning after the snow storm.

My travel things.

Our awesome view and windows.

Ducks in Estes Lake.

Gorgeous.

I wish I took more pictures of our food, room, Richard's best friend (TV), us, elk, deer, snow, etc. I think Richard's camera has the bulk of those. Haha. Had a blast though and am glad we chose Denver. :)

I will miss thee....

2009-11-12T13:32:00.000-08:00

CONGRATS MARIAM & PAUL!!!

2009-11-10T11:21:00.000-08:00

My Little Brother is Talented

2009-11-05T11:16:00.000-08:00

and way too humble. Happily putting his skills on blast here. :)

My desktop background.

He's still finishing this one but I like it alreaddddy.

Happy Halloween!

2009-10-31T22:44:00.000-07:00

So for Halloween, I got a little carried away...literally have to thank Justin and Gardenia for saving my life. :-P

Anyway, here are some pictures from Halloween. Haha..almost want to tell my sister and brother to NOT read this post.

Yoana has the cutest nephews.

Ladaaay Gagaaa

Here's what I did for the whole time at the club. :(

Felt pretty happy for a while...

But then felt pretty sick

And twirled around trees...fell...

Made Gardenia laugh, gave her more ammo (as IF SHE NEEDED MORE)

Happy happy Manny

Wasssup?

Hero on the left and Adam. :)

Cute cute cute.

Wedding Dance

2009-10-18T21:24:00.000-07:00

I'm sure the whole world already knew about this couple, but how cute. Their wedding party came down the aisle in a different way. It's really entertaining annnnd The Office did it for Jim and Pam too.

Check it out....feeling inspired Mariam? ;)

Jill and Kevin - Wedding Dance (youtube link)

Yay Saturday

2009-10-17T17:46:00.000-07:00

Today's sorta been an awesome day. I went to bed waaaay too late, but somehow managed to wake up at 10 to workout at Veteran's Park and then jog home to do pilates with my roommate. We were hot and bothered so we finished our session with a dip in our freezing cold, fresh rain-filled pool.

My friend just jumped in but I hovered near the stairs and made it in, step by step. Couldn't go all in, I think I made it just above my belly button. It felt great...got some sun while my legs went numb.

Anyways, we went to the Beverly Center after that and grabbed lunch. The Beverly Center is a pretty awesome place, I don't go there enough. It's just so huge and even my gold bars wouldn't be enough to get me allll that I wanted there. :P Anyways, we met up with some friends and I scurried over to the call place for my Saturday shift rotation by 4 30. The highlight of the Beverly Center today though had to be the bath and body works car scents I stocked up on. I keep them in my car and I just ran out. Smells heavenly again and helps make LA traffic almost bearable.

Here's the one I filled up on...got one for my room this time too. Yummmm.

I'm eating Flowers!

2009-10-14T10:37:00.000-07:00

One of my friends gave me an awesome gift...an Aladdin Tea Infuser. I didn't even really know that I liked tea til this little tumbler came along. I love it and use it every morning and multiple times throughout the day.

You can't see it in the picture, but there's this little holder for tea leaves and you fill it up and push this lever that drops it into the water. This lets the water flow freely through the leaves without getting all the leaves in your cup. Once you're happy with the color and strength of your tea, you push the lever again and it tucks away til your next batch.

On top of that it's made from special plastic that isn't harmful to you when heated. OHhhhhh and also, just so happens my wife has this awesome tin of tea leaves. The two combined make the best tea experience. It feels like I'm eating flowers.

(Adam, you should try this next time you come for tea).

I want another day like this...

2009-10-12T21:25:00.001-07:00

Let's Go Back to SF!

2009-10-12T12:14:00.000-07:00

Throw those signs.

Lol. We made a beer run and the restaurant was okay with it. How awesome is that.

Yoana and I polished off everyone's beers. And went ninja modddde.

At the W.

A tribute to some good times with good people in San Francisco. I miss it, let's go back, ya? Whooooo's down?

Bridal Shower Success

2009-10-10T18:16:00.001-07:00

I'm going to post and update this one...but thought I'd get a head start. I think it turned out great and whew...thank god...this was the scariest of the 3 hurdles to cross for us.

Because 1 AM is Just Too Early to Sleep

2009-10-09T10:35:00.000-07:00

Gardenia (left) Me (right) Yeahhhh she wore the hot outfit.

Gardenia is a sleep depriving sorcerer. Juuuust when you think the night is over, especially after a long night out, this girl can get you recharged and pumped to do just about anything.

Last night, we had the brilliant idea of planning our outfits for the next day. Good thing I have so many important places to go and paparazzi following me and my fashion trends all over LA. Lol. Anyway, we styled each other's outfits. We're gonna try to do this for a week.

Morning at the Office

2009-10-08T11:32:00.000-07:00

So I have an exciting evening planned with Miss G tonight, but the morning's been great as well. What better way to start off the day than with a HUGE AMERICANO from starbucks prepared just the way I like by my wife. How cute she knows what I like and how I like. Yup, so today's post is about the office, my co workers, and all the love that happens here. And (ugh) glad I dressed like a pirate the day we decide to take pics.

My pirate get up....ARRRGh

My Addiction....

My Other Addiction...

Work place

Oh no you diiiidn'nnnnt!

My birthday present from Mariam...so worth the wait. :)

Dine LA - One Pico

2009-10-07T00:25:00.001-07:00

Dine LA Restaurant #1 : One Pico at the Shutters Hotel.
Guest: THE Bing himself
Food: mmm not sure what kind of food it was, lots of seafood though
Rating: Delicious!
Favorite thing: The service was really awesome and after dinner, we had our wine carried to a lounge with lots of fireplaces, a pretty piano, and hung out on a couch listening to an awesome guitarist strumming like there was no tomorrow.

He got the filet mignon but my seabass kicked butt!!

My attempt at taking artsy pictures of cups and candles. :)

Overall, really happy with the restaurant and the night. Definitely would do it again. Can't wait for restaurant #2 with Miss G

Bachelorette Party at Hollywood Men

2009-10-06T13:01:00.000-07:00

The party continues. We kidnapped Mariam again and took her to see some studddd muffins at Hollywood Men. Not much to say here, just some pics to entertain and inspire. ;)

Cheers to Mariam!

The ladies who brought it together....

Some of the food we served...

Mariam on the way to hollywood men...

The bride to be at hollywood men...

A body shot, just for kicks....

Stars

2009-10-01T11:35:00.000-07:00

I love this band. Their song, The Big Fight, played on my pandora this morning and it hit the spot. Emo moment! You can listen here.

How could you do it
I couldnt say
Years built on sand
June until may
Second to second
Lied even while you held my hand

It's death for the living
Yes i am a ghost
The mirror is cloudy
I loved you the most
You threw out the pieces
Did things we didnt understand

He doesnt want her but he just wont let her go
She started breaking but she still wont let it show

The clothes in the wardrobe
Just send them to me
Theres bills here for you
Thats cause nothing is free
We filled up with things
To make us who we want to be

Is she in the background?
I just wouldnt know
Did i build you a prison?
Please dont let me go
Ive unlocked the doors..
But you cant walk away from me

He doesnt want her but he just wont let her go
She started breaking but she still wont let it show
He doesnt want her but he just wont let her go

Surprises & Vegas

2009-09-28T21:58:00.000-07:00

At 5 am on Saturday morning, Miss Zubin got a wake up call like no other. Four of us surprised her in bed and kidnapped her for an unforgettable weekend in Vegas. Without further adieu here is the bride to be and some of the highlights!

Sasabune

2009-09-25T18:32:00.000-07:00

A very very good friend took me to Sasabune for my birthday and I seriously had the best sushi ever. We ordered the chef's dinner and ate whatever the chef was making. It was great sushi, great service, and I am going back there next Wednesday with some girlfriends. Yay! Yum! Yay!

Cute Cute Cute

2009-09-24T17:16:00.001-07:00

I watched this couple's wedding portfolio a million times today. They are so cute. One daaaaay...

There are more of them here. Pathetic, i know i know.

Feed my Fishes!

2009-09-23T14:24:00.001-07:00

I got some fish I can't even kill. Scroll down on my page, and on the right hand side, you'll see fish swirling around. Click anywhere and you'll be dropping food they eat!

How exciting, RIGHT??!?!?!?!?! =P

It was on this day...

2009-09-22T12:01:00.000-07:00

in 1961 that Kennedy passed the Peace Corps Act.

Very cool.

One day I hope to sign up as someone who is "qualified for service abroad and willing to serve, under conditions of hardship if necessary, to help the peoples of such countries and areas in meeting their needs for trained manpower."

Kind of hard to believe that there have only been 195,000 volunteers since 1961. Right now there are about 7,800 volunteers in 76 countries. 60% percent of the current force is female.

Eyeball Licking Good

2009-09-21T11:25:00.000-07:00

I had an awesome birthday this past Saturday. It was great to be surrounded by friends and family. Makes turning 24 a little less depressing. I had to post this picture because my birthday was eyeball licking good. Haha.

Missed my sister and brother there, but I carry them in my heart so they weren't too far away. Anyway, enough cheese. Just had to post about a great night and great friends. =)

Burnt Out

2009-09-18T18:23:00.000-07:00

If I were home, I'd have my panties in a bunch about my bed and sleep in gennneral.

I am so tired and hungry right now. It's very sad. I am definitely paying for the last two days of fun. Wah!

On a happy note though, I got my birthday dress and some accessories to go with it. The only problem is I'm pretty sure my shoes don't match my dress and I don't really have an answer to that problem. I got red red shoes and my dress is ivory. Don't really know what to do with that yet....oh well, I'm hoping I have a pair of shoes that will work some where back there.

For my hair, I've decided to do loose curls and probably a half hair up do with some very cute flower pins. And yay, just excited to see everyone and really hope everyone has a good time.

I am falling asleep as I type this...but it is the only thing preventing me from just going head first onto my desk and knocking out. ZZZzzzzzzzz.

Primer...for your FACE!

2009-09-18T12:02:00.000-07:00

Hate to get super girly, but I have my Panties In A Bunch about some primmmmer. One for your face and one for your eyelids. The brand I recommend for your face is one by Smashbox, it makes your pores look smaller, helps smooth any wrinkles if you have any, and keeps your foundation on all day. I love it. It feels super silky and light.

For your eyelids, I recommend Urban Decay's Eyeshadow Primer Potion. Sounds toxic, but it's awesome. Keeps your colors on and crease free.

Favorite Poems

2009-09-17T11:39:00.000-07:00

Emo moment, I know. But here are some poems from two of my favorite poets:

And Here You Are - Michael Blumenthal
http://writersalmanac.publicradio.org/index.php?date=2009/09/04

Light, at Thirty Two - Michael Blumenthal
http://writersalmanac.publicradio.org/index.php?date=2006/07/30

Cherishing What Isn't - Jack Gilbert
http://writersalmanac.publicradio.org/index.php?date=2009/08/06

Failing and Flying - Jack Gilbert
http://writersalmanac.publicradio.org/index.php?date=2007/04/06

Diet Coke

2009-09-14T10:14:00.000-07:00

I just had a diet coke and it's only 10 am. Sounds sick but it feels so good. Can't help it. My co worker Eric tries to get me to switch to Diet Pepsi, but I know better. Diet Coke fans holla!!!

Joy Ride

2009-09-11T16:38:00.000-07:00

Just decided last minute, I'm gonna turn 24 in Vegas. Can't wait to hit the road and drive. Just one of those days.

All I want right now is some night air, desert scenery, good music, and a fast drive.

Yaaaaaay. Can hang out with the fam on Sunday and friends the following week. Tonight's all mine.

Bahamas with Wife

2009-09-11T10:26:00.001-07:00

Our ship is in the back and we are docked at our favorite island - Half Moon Cay. The water was unbelievable and the sand was like dough. We spent all day in the sun and ocean. Everyone says we didn't get tanned, but we suuure did and have tan lines to prove it!

Below is a video of us parasailing. Yes I was ballsy and took a camera up there - WHAT! Haha, it was so much fun.

Santa Monica - Beach it!

2008-09-03T09:36:00.000-07:00

Today's post is a tribute to summer's sweetest spot - the beach! This was taken at Santa Monica Beach. If you haven't been to the beach yet this summer, shame on you, go!

Lights, Camera, Action!

2008-08-25T20:27:00.000-07:00

Brace yourselves people...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eErziU9OA6o

Sony HDNA Vaio commerical starring Miss Andrea Rueda!

Costco VIP

2008-08-22T16:37:00.000-07:00

If you have any plans on trimming down, don't work with us and don't ever visit us at work cause we are huge fatties. Today was our monthly Costco run and we stocked up. Everyone is in a better mood after Costco runs and we all kinda grin in glee when everything is assembled and ready for mass consumption. There are only about 13 of us here on a regular basis so this is a lotta food for that many bellies. Anyway, just thought this much sugar, fat, high fructose syrup, salt, and beer deserved a post.

Home is Where the <3 Is!

2008-08-13T17:31:00.000-07:00

For the past 3 years, I lived at 465 Midvale and loved, loved, loved it. We had a back and front porch, our own mini parking lot, hardwood floors, floor to ceiling windows, and I had a full on walk-in closet. A lot of great memories were made in that little apartment.

As much as I loved living there, I am even more excited about my new place. Aside from exciting upgrades like carpet, my own room and bathroom, and a pool, I have my panties in a bunch about living with 2 of my best friends!

Here are the featured ladies! Andrea (roomie for 2 years) and Gardenia. You can meet them at our house warming party! :D

Another Great Month

2008-07-31T21:19:00.000-07:00

$422,929.50

Surpassed the monthly goal. We are pretty amazing.

I look like this today: x)

Learning to Love You More by Miranda July

2008-07-30T17:15:00.000-07:00

This past weekend I stumbled upon a really great book at Family in Melrose. It's called "Learning to Love You More" by Miranda July. It's made up of responses to 68 different and inspirational assignments. The assignments are things like photograph a memorable or significant outfit, take a picture of your parents kissing, write the conversation you wish you could have, reread your favorite book from 5th grade, etc... You can get the complete list of assignments here and do them yourself, I recommend it and hope to start on them too.

The book is pretty awesome. July compiles the best of the best photographs, poems, and stories submitted by people from all over the world. Some of the submissions will send chills up and down your back or make you smile, cry, laugh - feel - period.

www.mirandajuly.com
www.learningtoloveyoumore.com

Cinespia

2008-07-28T16:47:00.000-07:00

If you love summer evenings, I have the perfect venue for you : Cinespia at Hollywood Forever Cemetery. On Saturdays and Sundays a classic movie (often black and white) is put on and hundreds gather with favorite treats and wine to watch and kick back.

It gets a bit crowded so you should get there early and plan on being there for a while before the movie starts. People play games, listen to music, and snack while waiting. Tons of fun, $10 to get in, go!

www.cinespia.org

No Words

2008-07-21T09:49:00.001-07:00

Office Romance

2008-07-09T19:52:00.000-07:00

There's nothing sweeter than watching two of your co workers fall in love... especially when it's with EACH OTHER. We all felt there was something going on between this project manager and developer but that night really confirmed everything.

Mannabell came dressed in a fashionably "her" pink tee and Adam came in his finest "his" blue. We were lucky enough to catch them in this candid shot as they looked lovingly into each other's eyes. Yes, this photo was slightly embellished to add to the romance of it all. However, aside from the rose, heart, and pink shoes, everything you see here is real, especially the Adam-Mannabell love.

Cheers to a budding romance!

Croquet Champs!

2008-07-08T14:16:00.001-07:00

This past weekend, I discovered there is no greater satisfaction than in winning a croquet game, especially when it takes over 2 hours to play. As day became dusk and then night, I cheered, yelled, almost killed and wacked my good partner Adam into a final stroke of victory.

I think what made the win even more amazing is that we were playing Paul and Mariam. Mariam was the voice of strategy, clear reason and calm throughout the game while Paul was THE expert croquet shooter.

Cheers to croquet and I'm looking forward to a rematch at our $500k party!

Oh yeah, and the only drawback is that Mr. Paparatzo, while capturing all of our "about to eat faces" perfectly, failed to capture the glorious seconds after victory. This picture is really the minute after victory. After the winning stroke, I was towering in the air as Adam laughed with glee. NICE ONE MANNY.

Close of June at $400K!!!

2008-07-02T11:44:00.000-07:00

So on Monday afternoon, after our Weekly Meeting, Yoana comes up to me and shows me the depressing and seemingly impossible figure we have to make up to reach $400K : $35,600 and some change. Our best day that month had been somewhere around $20,000.

For some reason, the number staring at me on her little office depot calculator didn't seem that large. In fact, I thought of it as only 3 $10k deals. No biggie. John looked at me and said, if you can do it, it'd be some kind of miracle.

Well...whaddaya know, with the combined forces of our team, we reached $400k and beyond! Amazing. Monday was an awesome day and now Thursday is going to be even better. We are having a BBQ/rock band/beer pong/bar hopping/pool party and we don't even need to sober up cause the next day is the 4th!

Will post pics after the party!!

Healing Robotic Baby Seal

2008-06-26T09:34:00.000-07:00

Panties in a Bunch: Paro - The things you learn from NPR...

So what do you do when you're stuck in a nursing home, your kids don't visit anymore, and you can't have any pets in the facility? Buy a robotic baby seal. DUH.

These go for a few thousand dollars and have extra sensory detection for light, sound, and touch. They tested the baby seal, Paro, in a Japanese nursing home for 10 months and saw improvement in patient stress levels. You can watch a video here The inventor first tested cats and dogs but people's expectations were too high. Paro was perfect because people don't really know what to expect from a baby seal.

If your panties are in a bunch about this too, you can read more on npr here.

Avoiding DTRs

2008-06-24T15:10:00.000-07:00

[15:06] KLUTZIE: i'm still thinking of a way to say, "WHAT ARE WE?" nicely and not scarily
[15:07] KLUTZIE: seriously can u imagine me like in the middle of the movie turning to him and saying loudly with my eyes open really big, so........WHAT ARE WE?
[15:09] MissKali: hahahahaha
[15:09] MissKali: that would be the highlight of my life
[15:14] KLUTZIE: i'm sure it would

The above IM excerpt pretty much explains exactly why "girls night in" (a.k.a. the opportunity to gather and gorge ourselves on greasy pizza, fudge brownies, and pints of ice cream) exists.

Commitment and clearly defined relationships seem be to equally rare these days which is sad because from what I gather, a girl would be happy with just one of the two if she can't have both.

I've been living vicariously through my 25 year old single girlfriend for the past couple years and the greatest trouble in meeting someone appears to be not so much connecting with another person, but in maintaining that connection and understanding it for what it is. The horrible DTR ("determining the relationship" for those fortunate few that have never had to encounter the expression) is avoided like the plague and while steering clear from it leaves things up in the air and light, it needs to happen. It's like ignoring a cavity and waiting for it to reach the gum where it really hurts and too much has happened.

Time is everything. Don't waste our time. If I am the entree on your table, commit to me like I am that $$$ dish and if I'm just a small dish spinning on your lazy susan, let me know. DTRs aren't about hurting feelings, they are about being honest. So...don't get your Panties in a Bunch about it, just spell it out.

Becks

2008-06-23T08:48:00.000-07:00

Panties in a Bunch moment: ...David Beckham....drooool...

I'm not sure if this panties in a bunch moment needs any explanation. I like soccer but he is 99.999999% of the reason I go to galaxy games. You should have seen his walk pre taking off the shirt. He gave his shirt to some girl in the vip section. I think Mariam, Yoana, and I could have taken her, she was only like 5 feet away. Yeah, we probably should have and split his shirt in three. Sigh...at least I came home with this blurry but beautiful pic.

This might be the Panties in a Bunch moment of the year. Not sure yet but it is definitely a leading contender.

p.s. If you click the image, you can see the picture in full size. ;)

Kayla

2008-06-19T10:15:00.001-07:00

Panties in a Bunch moment : My 3 year old cousin finally making a scrunchy face.

This was our second attempt and she got it perfect. You have to keep in mind, we were using a camera that has about 38439030 flashes and so you always think it's over but the flashing really just got started. Tricky for a 3 year old, tricky for a 22 year old. :)

Basically, I guess this post celebrates kids period. So CUTE! Nom, nom, nom, nom.

R.I.P. Ruby

2008-06-12T22:22:00.000-07:00

Panties in a Bunch moment : Ruby Dying.

Today, I was unexpectedly bothered by the passing of my beta fish, Ruby. He was only with me for 2 months but I already miss him! Lame, but I have to admit, it was surprisingly peaceful and soothing to have such a quiet desk buddy swimming around all day.

The causes of death are unknown but here are the likely reasons ordered from most likely to least likely:

1) Manny sabotaged Ruby and Taro while we were away at the co location yesterday.
2) Ruby died because he missed me and couldn't bear the hours we were apart during a normal week day.
3) Ruby was really old when I got him and he died in his sleep.
4) The chemical drops we didn't add this time mattered.

Whatever the case, I like to think he had a short but happy life and saw more of the world from the 10th floor than most fishes ever do their entire lives. This marks the first unhappy wound up moment in my blog.

Sex and the City

2008-06-10T12:29:00.001-07:00

Panties In A Bunch today goes to the Sex and the City movie.

This was the best $9.00 I've spent in a long time. Go see it if you haven't already, even if you didn't watch the show. Amidst the ridiculously expensive shoes, clothes, and purses, the movie rings truths about friendship, love, and the journey we all have with our selves. It really isn't just a materialistic frenzy or vulgar women on the hunt for men in NYC, it'll make you laugh and love the ones you have in your life.

Yep, if you didn't have your daily serving of cheese, I think I just gave it to ya.

5 Days in Miami Beach

2008-06-08T21:33:00.000-07:00

I failed this blog for the past several days but for good reason...partying and ad tech-ing in Miami Beach. My Panties in a Bunch since the last post is to Yoana for being the best company a girl working/partying in Miami Beach for 5 days could ask for.

Below is a tribute to our late nights in South Beach. (They're horrible but literally the only pictures we stopped to take).

Props to Drama Queen

2008-05-28T23:07:00.000-07:00

I didn't expect a second Panties In A Bunch moment today but it definitely happened. This guy is pretty much the best thing since peanut butter and jelly. 4 full pages and 2 placards revised and perfected on the same day I dropped the favor. Thank you for the unexpected Panties In A Bunch, drama queen.

First Post - Big TV!

2008-05-28T22:17:00.001-07:00

First post! How exciting! I think I have my panties in a bunch.....

No but really, today's Panties In A Bunch moment is dedicated to the colossal t.v. I've inherited from Mr. John Marston.

My three roommates and I huddled around that little tv (to the left) for over 2 years. An upgrade was long over due. John's the best! First official Panties In A Bunch moment was certainly well deserved.